Gadis asing dan saya.

Bismillah.

Ha! 

Now Im currently at home. 

Sem break. hihi

So basically.

I saw a girl.

A girl who stays in front of my room. (the girl infrontofdoor.Lol)

We never talked to each other.  

I just knew that she's taking the same foundation programme with me and she's from another class.

So my first impression towards this girl. I could never express it in a good way I guess. my bad.
Im sorry. Its not that I feel Im a good person. Oh a BIG no. its just I feel you shouldnt be doing all that stuffs.

One day.
Allah swt gave me a chance to smile at her, talk to her, and laugh with her. she's my leader for my level. she's a good leader. Seriously.

Another day.
My roommate and I, both of us were talking about our assignments and stuffs, suddenly we saw a lizard! Hah apa lagi. Menjerit la dua dua orang.
So we HAVE to seek help from others. dengan muka tak malunya,
I knocked her door, and told her to help us. muka mmg nak menangis dah. cicak punya pasal --'
She managed to halau the lizard. Alhamdulillah. So we thanked her. And she left. and then, we didnt close our door because hehe takut cicak muncul. so boleh lari.

But. after Maghrib prayer. She came to my room. She looked at my old pictures.
She started to tell me her stories.

Allahu. I just love what HE had planned for me.
Allah swt gave me another chance to listen to her problems,
Allah swt pertemukan kami atas sebab yang satu. Mencari redha Dia.

She's searching for Him and so am I.
She said to me,
"I jealous sebenarnya dengan you guys. You guys mcm happy and everything." and mcm mcm lagi.

She told me about herself. I was about to cry but I tahan because if dua dua nangis mcm pelik ja --'
And then. she said thank you for listening and left my room.
After she went out. I just felt something.
and that something is...

Sometimes you are trying to preach unknown people, but the one that stands in front of you, you neglect her.

Sometimes Allah swt put you in that state so that you build your inner strength that ties with Him.

Sometimes Allah swt didnt grant your wishes because He has  something better for you.

Sometimes Allah swt wants you to help others who are searching for Him and tell those people His Rahmat is still there.

Sometimes Allah swt tests you so that you stay husnuzon at all the time.

and its true when they say

"Everybody saw her drowning, but nobody saw her struggle."

Indeed. Boleh jadi sekiranya Allah tak pertemukan kami,

selamanya la saya tengok dia pelik. 

Perancangan Dia hebat,

Seolah olah melihat diriku kembali.

saya berusaha. rupanya gadis ini juga berusaha.

sebelum dia dan saya ke tempat yang sama,

meeting faculty. 

dia datang bilik. dia salam farah dan genggaman dia kemas sekali,

she looked me in the eyes and said 

"You need to help me okay!"

ayat tu, I used to say to a friend of mine.

and now ayat itu kembali to me .

What can I say? I will help you.

I will. In shaa Allah.

because I want you to have the same feelings when He gave me a new heart. a new life. new friends.

and lillahi ta'ala. Moga ketemu di syurga! 

ah bahagianya.

Moga gadis itu qawiy selalu.

Ihsan namanya. 

"Ihsan, I love you lillahi ta'ala. Dont worry, Allah swt still pandang kita ! "

Moga Allah redha,

amin.